asleep?

ok.
this isn't fun.
insomnia is not fun.

i am an EASY sleeper. just ask any poor sod who has had to be near me at any live music event. i conk out no matter where i am; the volume; the temperature; fucking anything. i am tired? k, sleeptime!

right now, i am tired. i close eyes. i scuffle. i roll over a bit. eyes flick back open. stare at time. i yawn, roll over again. shove books around with feet. crack neck. listen to little bunny. yawn. hey little brain, quieten down up there for a bit eh? yes, yes, i know, i know, we've been through all this before, and i promise, you'll be awake again soon! in a matter of hours! you can torture yourself about it then! but how about we compromise, and you can have really tedious dreams for a few hours, using similar metaphores, and then wake up and start your earworm day....

blergh. tired. tired. tired.

why doesn't this work? i am tired. yes! why am i not asleep? these things should match. one two three four... connect four! maybe i should go for a run tomorrow. wtf? what. the. fuck. was that? i don't Run. i struggle with the Walking. i could lift things? arghghgh... sleep sleep the magical fruit... i am far too tired to read, to do anything constructive... maybe i should try reading. something nice and dull and difficult. no, i'll just end up depressed that i am too retarded to understand anything more sophisticated than a baby sitters club book.... hey! no, not in the mood for a baby sitters club book.

sigh.

this is very boring.

format queen.

alright. i, with the help of wink-wink, have managed to change some colours.

go team me, go!

in other news, i just ordered some ingeo for the first time. i have never seen, touched, or worked with it before, so i am excited. it's in that electric blue i love so much as well. i swear it was made for me.

in other news, i feel gross today. couldn't sleep last night (this is Abnormal for me) and was left watching lousy TV until 2am. at least i got some great work done on 'lucky.' however, i will have to do up some fingerknitted cowls for christine - i am designing some knitted bits for her winter line, for her lable mayke and i am excited! and slighty unsure of my very small knitted technical ability. i am Enthusiastic. not particularly wise yet though. but i finger-knit well. and if you want doilies - i am your woman.