singing along, singing along, i feel gloriously merry tonight.
just had the divine ms N over for dinner, we ate the Typical Elizabeth Feast - pasta. cheese. garlic. chilli. oil. it's amazingly delicious. n. and i would both live off it if we had our way.
am tentatively starting photo a day up again. and, i like to let my readers have pictures... all words, no pictures, i don't want to bore you, my loves.
what i guess is now medically classified as Mania is glorious. i love these phases. they happen after storms, the light comes out, and i am so refreshed, so glistening after the darkness, that the sun is the most incredible sight. my eyes swell and i breathe it in, and i hold it tightly closer inside, oh god, yes, that air, so delicious slowly flowing out that oxygen. i feel music differently, i smell the air and it's completely new. the colours, oh GOD colours are just a never ending source of delight.
and movement. and moments. and places. i don't care what this is, because i feel so human, and so happy. i think it comes from the contrast of misery. but at the same time, i can identify other things. the still no food. the no sleep. the energy. the glee. the playfulness. i feel bouncing and spirited and alive. alive again, more to the point, like i have woken up, and there is life and love again.
the leaves are turning, the leaves are turning! the colours blush around me, they flood my retina. bunny runs laps around the apartment, his glee coming out in the way he flies, flies flies.
and i don't need anyone or anything to feel like this. i feel alive. i feel so fucking alive. i feel freed from that taunting ear worm now, it twittered a little at me today, but then, things were clear. so clear, and i am free again, and i am an all powerful amazon warrior and i am strong. as. fuck. mister.
knitting. knitting.
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