bathtime!

i had a bath, lush bath bomb, deep deep bath, and oh fuck, it was wonderful. i was going to drink until i passed out, but now, i am going to have water, and breathe deeply, and go to sleep.

cbt 101. incorrect thoughts.

1. you will never love ANYONE AGAIN, he is the best human being in the whole world, ever, and you are trapped alone in misery.

answer - no, i know from my previous experiences that i will love someone else again. i will love many other people again. i will not be in love with him forever, and nor will i never get over my feelings for him. love is a choice, to an extent. to an extent. and i can work with that extent.

i also do not define myself by being in a relationship. it's ok, i LIKE being single.

2. he made you SO HAPPY.

answer - elizabeth. you are sad. very very sad. you have been sad for a long time. you only went back because you felt vulnerable. if not for the Bad Work Thing, you never would have started trying to sort it out. you were resolved, sensible, and decided. and you then crawled back because it seemed like a good idea, and you were vulnerable, and sex seemed like a Great Idea.

3. you are pathetic.

answer - you FEEL PATHETIC. not are. it's ok to feel as though i am pathetic. to regret my actions. but i am not pathetic. i am FEELING pathetic.

4. no one likes me.

this is refuted by how wonderful my friends have been.i am loved by many wonderful people.



i am strong. i am strong. i am strong. i am strong. i am strong. i am Strong.