goals

i rarely write them, because i am shit at sticking to things.

1. read more this year. more books. more poetry. more non fiction. more anything. just read. less cluttering life with complexities and idiocies. i want to go inside for a little.
2. try feel less guilty about not finishing masters just yet.
3. finish masters one day.
4. work on building friendships strong, and being a better friend to the people i love.
5. aim towards another relationship, some time this year. no hurry, not looking. but when i am ready, i am looking forward to another relationship, and falling in love with someone again.

6. write more this year.
7. write more poetry. i love writing poetry, despite the cringe factor of the fact all teen girls write crap poetry, and i want to do it for me, not for anyone or anything else.
8. paint. at some point, buy some oils, a nice cheap little set, and do some paintings of animals.
9. draw, if and when i want to.
10. spend more time alone, but more quality time with friends.

11. drink less.
12. cook more.
13. spend less on crap.
14. spend more time with bunnies.
15. see more movies.

16. be more mindful.
17. be proud of who i am.
18. don't cower in self-deprecation, but be confident.
19. start concrete travel plans.
20. keep looking for an apartment, but don't cling to it, because it might not be an affordable possibility.

21. either go up to an APS 4 or 5 in the next few years, or at the Very Least, take a secondment to a higher level in the next six months/year.
22. focus more. learn to focus unaided.
23. expect to be treated with respect in relationships, and refuse to accept it if i am not.
24. expect to be given the time, the love, and the kindness i deserve from the people in my life voluntarily. if i am not, look at why they are in my life.
25. be kinder to everyone, regardless of how they treat me. appreciate that even if they are unkind to me, that is no need for me to, thus, be unkind to them. be compassionate, but not a doormat.